Trying to write a query, trying to write a draft of an article, trying to care. But I don't. I have the Apathy infection. And God knows I suck as a writer when I don't care. Is this part of being mildly heartbroken? Or is my creative investing too diversified to actually find meaning in any one experience? Or did all this snow just make me lazy?
It's almost a curse to find so much enjoyment in the creative process, because THEN. When it doesn't feel good. I just want to quit. It's not what I signed up for. I'm such an unprofessional pleasure-seeker.
But I can't let down the dude I'm writing for. And I have to turn the article into my prof no matter what. All I know to do is listen to the Facebook wisdom of my friend Jake Bowling. But I don't like it.
"Many of the great achievements of the world were accomplished by tired and discouraged [people] who kept on working."
I'll add my aunt Heidi's recent status as well, but I loathe it even more.
"We don't have to want, let alone enjoy, what needs to be done."
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I did it. I did what needed to be done. I sent a pathetic & dumb query, just to get it off my hands. I finished a draft of my One World Ed profile. I don't feel good about any of it, but it's done and today that's going to have to be enough. I DO feel good that I'm allowed to eat dinner now.
ReplyDeleteBoth those quotes are battle cries. I'm glad you got things done.
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